The Wish List !!

Here I go.... Completed quarter a century.. Lived one fourth of my life.. Thought so much, wanted to achieve so much but seems like I stand on ground zero, still struggling to deepen my individuality.. Sometimes it feels great when you live life on your own terms. When you take your own decisions, when you travel alone, when you stay alone. But at the same time your decisions are always dependent on others, sometimes parents, sometimes friends.. Have you ever thought what you have done for your happiness? Have you ever done something which makes you feel happy, which brings smile on your face?..Hmmmmm not really..Isn't it?

Last night I saw this Hindi movie- Dasvidaniya ( meaning Good Bye in Russian ).. a light genre movie, where the main protagonist is diagnosed  with cancer and realized, what all he had missed in his 37 years of life and then decides to fulfill  his top 10 wishes before he dies.. starting from learning to play guitar to fall in love.. The movie kind of inspired me to work on my own wish list.. What I want to do in life and when I grow old I should have a good stock of stories and real time experiences to pass on to my next generation and more of it when I die I shouldn't die with this repent in my heart that I've never done anything for myself..

I still remember that day when I told Maa that I want to color my hair.. Well she wasn't really convinced..She thinks a bong girl should have long black lustrous hair.. and me being a "Good Girl" didn't go against her.. Then came the idea of getting my rim pierced.. Maa came up with the idea of getting my nose pierced.. and she tried to bribe me also with a diamond nose pin.. Yuckk... I never liked nose piercing.. and she thinks that only tribal people pierce their ear rim. Again I have to suppress my wish..

 Daddy wanted me to learn music.. He thinks music is in my blood.. but Harmonium never attracted me, though I like to listen to others when they sing and yes all the girls in my family sing quite well,me being an exception.. I wanted to learn classical dancing which again never happened.. But now I think if I really wanted to do this I should have done it..Why I waited for someone to say " YES..Go for it.."?

Being a single child, I've grown up alone... Being with someone, growing with someone is a feeling that I've always craved for..  Now I want to raise a puppy.. I know there is no connect me being a single child and raising a puppy but yes that's my wish and one day I would definitely get a puppy and prove everybody wrong who thinks that I am not old enough to take responsibilities..

Well getting myself inked is one more thing that really excites me. All my friends say that I am a real Virgo, I am someone who is very earthy and feminine.. will make a good mother and wife.... Soon I'm getting inked, Virgin Maiden or Virgo Symbol..

Life is all about gaining experiences..and you always end up learning something new..There is an old saying "It's better to be late than never".. and Now when my wisdom tooth is coming in and I've entered into the 25th year of my life, I make a fresh start.. and it starts with pampering myself , listening to my heart and keeping myself happy.. They say " WE ARE YOUNG ONLY ONCE"...

When Monotony Strikes

When monotony strikes, I look at the sky

I search for my star, which leads my fate,

It looks so bright, makes me shine,

Since birth to mourn,they say it's mine,

Guiding my destiny , making me fly,

When I want something ,it makes me Sigh,

I crave for it,  I pray to my God,

To give me strength, make me bold,

When the days are bright, the Sun is high,

I walk down the road, I see them crawl,

I hope for the best, filled with zest,

The light gets down, the sky gets dark,

I look at the sky, I search for my star,

Which leads my fate,every now and then,

I wait for the dawn, I make a new start,

I walk down the road, I see them crawl.

When monotony strikes, I look at the sky...